Saturday, October 28, 2006
it's funny how love goes. one day you're madly in love and the next day: 'ka-boom' as yes reuben, you used to say. people fall out of love. strange.time heals all pain. right? perhaps. but then again, memories are still there. they're somewhat like scars that may have faded, but will always be present from within. and they're things we can never escape from or get rid of no matter how hard we struggle with ourselves. our emotions. so the people who caused these scars are actually those who mean more to you than anyone else. you find it awkward talking with these people? it's natural i suppose. but the times you shared with this person are so fulfilling -- even if its just sitting there not doing anything; even the silence is comfortable. suddenly it feels like just yesterday when all that fun stuffs happened. the sarcastic remarks or the stupid faces and camwhoring. then the smile appears on your face. something you can't help but do. at times like that, maybe the tears might start falling if you, like me, have yet to give it a good cry. you think about all the strength and motivation he's passed on to you. the stupid remarks you now use to others that originated from his teasings. the different unique ideas and surprises. and the meaningful lessons he's blessed you with. God can give you someone and He can take that someone away as well. i'll have to thank Him for all the treasure i once had but now lost. it never belonged to me in the first place i suppose. i always thought i had it right. but maybe not. just enforcing my view of life on someone else and wanting him to accept things the way i see it. it doesn't work this way i guess. so there are still the times you wish nothing happened. that you could relive that dream you held on for so long. and for that few minutes you play the memories in your mind, you have every right to form your own dream. after that you just shrug it off and forget about it cause you know it'll never come true again, and you got to move on. that's the way life is. and perhaps the way love is too, for the matter.but i'll miss yu. i've been missing yu ever since i said goodbye."there's nothing left to say, but goodbye"
- everything's just temporary;
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